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| 03:35pm 14/07/2004 |
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Fuck. I'm so tired and I feel really sick. I'm all hungry and whatnot, but I feel like if I eat then I'll massively throw up. BLEHHHHHHH. Tony just told me to drink lots of milk. And I think I almost puked.
I went to the dentist and thrift store today. Apparently I have a small cavity on one of the teeth...in the back of my mouth...and I have to get it cleaned out and sealed. Then I got a bunch of stuff at the thrift store because everything was half off.
Yesterday when I was stocking the candies at work, I accidentally put the Butterfinger shit in the Heath shit and Sean told me I was a nigger. I don't know why, but it was the funniest thing I think I've heard for a while.
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| 03:57am 12/07/2004 |
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Blue skies holding us down
There's no why
Only the sound of happy TV land
Cue the canned applause
Sidewalks, fall through the cracks to China
Never get back, I'm nothing
In these blues and laceless Velcro shoes
There used to be a reason why
We wrote the words across the sky
You and I will never die without a fight
My suburban muse
Green grass towering high
This white house, in it we'll die
A thousand tiny lies take the place of you
I see it, too
In all the things you do
It lives inside of you
A parasite or two
There used be a reason why
We wrote the words across the sky
You and I will never die without a fight
My suburban muse
I'm the king of ordinary things
It's killing me from inside out
I'll give it away...
There used to be a reason why
We wrote the words across the sky
You can I will never die without a fight
My suburban muse
Between the cars on dusty streets
The cul de sac is where we meet
I crush the leaves beneath my feet and curse this town
My suburban muse..
Wow, I just randomly started listening to Abandoned Pools again. I haven't listened to them in so fucking long...What the hell happened to them!? They're so cute...Heh, I remember when I saw them with Matt when we were supposed to see Pink and Lenny Krackwhore[*ahem* Kravitz]...Yeah. And then fucking Lenny Krackwhore decided to get throat problems. Fucker.
Aaaggghhh I fucking hope Tony calls me...later, I guess. MY GOD HE'S SO FUCKING SWEET AND CUTE AND AHHHHHHHHHH...Hehe. Damnit, why do I have to be such a girl?? God damnit. If he doesn't call before work, I'm going to call him and cry at him. Because I work at 5. And that's not cool.
I don't really like this LiveJournal name anymore...=\ I might change it soon, so...watch out, friends. Waaatch out.
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| 02:33am 11/07/2004 |
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I got my bangs cut to just above my eyelids and the back trimmed...so it looks alot better.
I dyed my hair black and purple...and it looks even better.
I uh...didn't do much this week.
I did, however, go to a show at the Emerson for the first time since December with Staci and Amanda and amazingly had myself a jolly good time. I drank 3 bottles of water and got the worst headache I've ever had in my entire life.
And I <3 Tony.
:D HORRAY FOR BEING INSANELY STINGY!
I just haven't felt like writing for a while, but I felt the need to since I haven't in 4 or 5 days. w00t. |
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| 02:53am 07/07/2004 |
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| 03:39pm 05/07/2004 |
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HEHEHE AWW CONGRATULATIONS MATT AND KARYYYYYYYN!!! Awww my big bruvver is growing up so fast :) I wanna be flower girl :o
Hmmhmm. Aww, that makes me so happy :D I'm all like weeeee even though I'm feeling like pooooo. I deserve it, though, because I was stupid last night. I went over to Amanda's house and we went to her mom's friend's house and hung out for a while and ate. Mmmhmm. Amanda and I were having alot of freaky coincidences during the car ride. We were talking about how our moms think they have intuitions and stuff, and we both looked out our respective windows and said, "Craziness" AT THE EXACT SAME TIME. Haha, it was so fucking weird. It was cool, though. So after we got bored at her mom's friend's house (her name is Joyce), we went to Cicero to watch their fireworks since Carmel is a douchebag city and is firing theirs off tonight. But I really rreeaallllyy like Cicero and I wanna live there or something. The fireworks were actually fucking awesome. They lasted for, like, 20 minutes and they were really big. Amanda and I were talking about violent things like drop-kicking babies against walls and laughing insanely while walking around before the fireworks started. Annnnd....then we went back to her house and I spent the night. Her dad was fucking blazed when we got home, and he gave us some and we got really fucking high >_O It was my first time ever actually being high and it wasn't very fun after the first 45 minutes. I don't remember much of anything I said last night. Everything was all choppy and my body parts felt like they were somewhere else...and it was nuts. I couldn't stand and I was twitching like hell. I conked out randomly and had a dream that my eyes were bleeding from being so red, and I thought it was real. I don't really ever want to do it again...but hey. At least it's out of the way. I was supposed to go to Carmel Fest with Amanda and her friend Lindsey today, but I woke up feeling like shit and brain damaged and wanting to sleep before work. I think we're going to close down during the fireworks and sit on the roof and watch them, but I don't know. I hope. Elsewise, that will be really stupid and shitty.
I want to cut my hair differently, because I'm getting really sick of spiking it all the time. I haven't been doing it much lately...only when I go to a show or to the mall or something, buuuuuuut yeah. Does anyone have any idea what I should do? Because I don't want it to just be stupid and flat =\ I wanna cut my long bang thingies somehow, but I'm scared. SOMEONE HELP MEE.
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| 03:31am 04/07/2004 |
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Awwwww, we got a new guinea pig a couple days ago, and we just introduced it to the other piggie, and they're on the floor right now snuggling and being friends. You don't have any idea how fucking cute it is XD Her name is Tweak and she has like...vertigo or something because an ear infection she had caused brain damage and she was up for adoption for like..3 months, and no one took her. I guess my mom and Tursh felt bad and adopted her. Awwww, SHE'S SO CUTE! She always has her head tilted to the side and she loses her balance and freaks out alot in her cage. Hehehe...Tweak is, like, half Daisy's size. This is so adorable. I haven't freaked out about a cute little animal since I saw that chihuahua puppy at Pass Pets. Hehe..She has a little mohawk on her butt.
Guinea pigs are so fucking cute.
And just so you know,
Hah, tell your friends, bitches.
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| 03:21am 29/06/2004 |
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Goddamnit, Larry sucks. I thought maybe he'd receive my telepathic messages telling him that I didn't want to work tomorrow. I'm supposed to go to an Indians baseball game thing. I don't think it'll be as fun as it was last year when I took Staci and we met that cool girl and that gay guy and hung out with them the whole time. Still, though, it'd be nice not to work.
So, today, Staci was supposed to come over at noon, but she ended up coming at 2:30. We went to Bubs and got waffle fries that were overcooked and damn good milkshakes. We paid the bill, which was around $10, with quarters...because that's what we cool kids do. Theeenn we passed by Chaos and saw a 75% Off Winter Stock sign and just couldn't fight the temptation. I got this shirt that used to be $34, and...wow. I'm impulsive. Staci convinced me to buy her a skirt and a shirt since she paid for lunch, and it only cost like...$9. WoooOoo.
So then I had to go to work. Some stupid bitch lady was arguing with me because she thought the 4-piece chicken basket came with a drink, even though I clearly stated that it didn't. Then she claimed I fucked up her order because she wanted onion rings and not fries and BLAH. I just ended up giving her a 70-cent discount because I wanted her to shut the hell up. I hate customers. If I could just run around making stuff, that'd be wonderful. We had a pretty cool night crew tonight, so it was okay.
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| 01:15am 27/06/2004 |
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Hmm. Uhm...Well, I don't really remember anything from Thursday...Other than working. But on Friday, I was up really early (Hah, that's 'cause I didn't sleep) but I had alot of energy. I even made myself a pot of coffee. Beth came into work the night before and was like, "CALL ME" so I did that around 9:45. She told me to come over to help her and Teagan and her mom make cookies...so I did. I had to ride my bike over there and it was pretty cold =\ But yeah. It was really hot in her kitchen, and Beth and I were making the cookies. Her mom was being kind of a bitch =\ Then after about an hour and a half of that, Beth and I left with Evanne to go to the mall. I think by about that time, I had been up ferrrr...20 hours, and I was spacey as HELL. It was so fucking funny...Everyone at the mall probably thought I was stoned. We went to Hot Topic, and I was looking for shoe laces, but they weren't in the place they were before...so I went up to where Evanne and Beth were by the belts, and was like, "Where are the fucking shoe laces?!" Then Evanne burst out laughing and pointed to the rack I was leaning on...and sure enough, shoe laces. They were even facing me. Then we got a digital camera for Beth, and we had to go to this pick-up place to get it. The guy that worked there told us to go through the double-doors and then to the right, but somehow we thought he said go to the doors and turn left. Thankfully he made us review it to him. Hmm...so then, alot of other stuff happened. We went to Libby Lu and made nail polish and bought it. Let me tell you, being insanely tired makes me a rather impulsive buyer. If I had been a little more aware of my surroundings, I wouldn't have paid $9.01 for a bottle of nail polish from a store that makes little 6-year-old girls look like sluts ready for the street corner. It's really pretty, though...I put an ungodly amount of glitter in it. Blehh...then I had to go to work. Sean and Jase are so fun to work with...I really hope neither of them quit because I love them. They make working there a little less painful. Heh. Sean and I were on drive-thru with this new girl, and we were backed up most of the night. We didn't even care. Occasionally we'd randomly take breaks and leave cars sitting out there for like...4 or 5 minutes. It was great. So, by the time I got home, I had been awake for about 31 hours. I laid down on the couch and instantly got tired enough to sleep. Then I slept for 13 hours. It was one of the most amazing things ever. I woke up around 3 and...stuff. I went to Cozzy's birthday party at her house at 6 and it was just like last year. Except with less people. We stayed outside most of the time and had a bonfire and fireworks, but we didn't run through the corn fields making "crop circles". I got bit by a bug for the first time this whole summer on my back near my ass. It made me really angry because I was trying to go through my summer bite-free. Cozzy's mom made this nacho dip stuff, and I guess it didn't like my stomach very much, so it decided to be a bitch and make me throw up. Twice. Then everyone left around midnight. And that's that.
You know what's insane? That All Downhill From Here song would be so much better if that STUPID FUCKING NASAL ASSHOLE DIDN'T SING IT. I hate his voice so much, but I actually like the music to that song. If there was some way I could edit out his voice and have like...the guy from Fingertight or Darwin's Waiting Room sing it...that'd be greeeeat. Blahh. |
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| 03:53am 24/06/2004 |
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I think...that I have insomnia now. I can't fucking get to sleep until like...9 in the morning. My eye sockets hurt like bitches on crack. I've become almost a complete recluse, too. The only people I've talked to in person this week were at work....or my family. In addition to that, I have a developing hatred of light and the sound of birds. I even hung a sheet up around my bed to further prevent light from getting to me in the morning...
I suck.
Now, see, if I had sleeping pills, life would be much better. I think I'm going to get Tursh to get some for me.
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| 12:46am 22/06/2004 |
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Pbbt.
See if I ever drink ungodly amounts of caffiene ever again.
Thank god that fucking...buzz didn't last as long as I thought it would. My muscles are all spasmy and...I feel dead. Heh.
...Yeah. Woo.
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| 11:44pm 21/06/2004 |
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HAHAHAHA, I AM SO FUCKING WIRED XD At work today, we drank like two pots of coffee among us. And in every cup, we put atleast five packs of sugar and creamer. It tasted really fucking good. Then when Mary wouldn't let us make any more coffee, we tried to make our own stuff like mix triple-strength coffee mix with milk and...stuff like that. That tasted like ass, though. There was something I made that was really really good, but I forget what. Hahaha. And we were so fucking crazy. I've never been not able to stop myself from giggling. Like, Kara would yell into the drive-thru speaker thing, and then she'd talk really softly. Hahaha, it was amazing. We even got everything cleaned off before we closed so...yeah. Someone came right as we were supposed to close and everything was clean, so we were huge assholes to them. Ahhh. I think I had way too much. My chest started itching really badly and I thought I was going to faint and I felt like things were crawling on me after I had a couple cups. Fuck, dude, I'm going to be up all fucking night. I took my ADD pills too late, so they won't wear off until like 2:30am and then there's all this caffiene in me. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I want to run around and jump and scream and do flips until I die from being out of breath. >_< I'm even shaking. skghdghakjyhjkgfkjdgjkhdkhgfkjdshfghsdkgh jkH hdgh jdfhjk
And I work 5-close every single night this week besides Wednesday and Sunday. Gahhh, my pay check is going to be F[PH]AT-ASS.
I think I'm seriously going to be sick.
OH, And I finally got initiated XD After working there for like 3 months. They put straight Misty flavoring and mint cream and coffe and wow. It tasted like shit. Misty flavoring is fucking sour, man.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH >_< SOMEONE COME SAVE MEEEE FROM MYSELFFFFFF
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mood: numb music: Stabbing Westward-How Can I Hold On?
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| 06:39pm 20/06/2004 |
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Let me...Paint a picture for you
It's a stormy night after
A cold December day
I step out into the light
You step back, whick makes me afraid
Of what I see....
And what I see is me.
I can see everything
Just carry all over me
As long as you hold me
In your hands, I'll remain
Your prisoner.
Last night I woke up
In the middle of your life
You spoke of devils and demons that I
Cannot explain.
They came up to me,
They made me feel...Dark and evil
I see you reach out to me
When you're colored,
And I'm strangled on my words
I am grasping onto the only
Thing that I have left.
When I raise my hands
Follow me to this place
I have mapped out
The sun never sets, and the moon
Is hardly out
The stars seem to laugh at me
As I stare up into the sky
And on my perch, I can see...
As clear, as clear as I
And I see you...
You're holding...
All my sky...
As I reach for...
The only thing I can...
Hold.
And all I see
I see you reach out to me
When you're colored,
And I'm strangled on my words
I am grasping onto the only
Thing that I have left.
When I raise my hands...
I am holding onto you
When I raise my hands...
You're the only thing.
That song is so fucking cute. As much as it doesn't rhyme, it's still...pretty. And I've been listening to it almost nonstop for the past few days. Heh. Maybe I'm just a nerd. I haven't updated that much. I guess my life got uninteresting. All I do is either go to work or sit around on the computer doing nothing. Or hanging out with Staci. Some random asshole IMed me and asked me if Staci and I were going out. She's really the only person I've kept in touch with since school ended...so that's kind of understandable. But still. Fuckers.
Uhm... I didn't know it was going to be Father's Day today until he told me on the way to work yesterday. I made him a card this morning at like...5 and left it on the kitchen table. The front said, "OMG, Happy Father's Day. LOL." Blahhh. Fucking tiredness.
My right wrist feels naked. I've only got 4 bracelets on it =\ I think I'm going to make a ton of bracelets tonight since I have absolutely nothing better to do.
I also think I'm going to dye my hair purple and black. Like, the back will be all splotched with purple and black, and the front will be all streaky. I'm going to get dye when I get my paycheck on Tuesday.
Yeah, this is fucking pointless bullshit. When I have something interesting or mildly entertaining to say, I'll post. I don't even like to read my own entries when they're this fucking boring. I'm sorry.
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| 04:11am 17/06/2004 |
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( Insanely awesome potential band names )
Hah. Slap happiness. It's a great thing.
Anyway, today was a rather interesting day. Caitlin Black, whom I haven't seen or heard from in probably a year and a half or so, randomly showed up at my door this morning and woke me up. It was fucking nuts! I wasn't even surprised. It was like I just saw her a few days ago. We hung out for a really long time, and we went to Arby's and..yeah. Nuts.
Then I went over to Cozzy's house with Mel. That was pretty fucking fun. I don't think I've ever laughed so much in my entire life. I can't even remember half the shit we laughed about.
This is so fucking nuts! I keep getting in touch with all these people I haven't seen or talked to in a billion fucking years.
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| 02:59am 16/06/2004 |
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Some stupid Mexican skater kids I know came in and ordered 3 orders of chili cheese fries, and it was like...$8, and they paid with a fucking $100 bill. Where on god's green seas would they get a $100 bill from?? And why would they use it Dairy Queen? What fucking losers.
I hate it so much when people talk really softly. Just because you're on front line doesn't mean I can hear you 80x better. Cunts.
My vision is blurring. I think that means I need sleep or something. Shit, I always need sleep. My dad started getting really shitty because the 1 key on the cordless phone was sticking. It was kind of funny, but just as equally scary.
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| 03:59pm 15/06/2004 |
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I had to go to the orthodontist yesterday to get my retainer back and all that jazz, and they took pictures of my teeth and it was rather uncomfortable. Staci went with me because we made it a tradition to go thrift store shopping whenever I'm in Glendale. The stupid orthodontist people were 20 minutes late calling me in, and Staci and I played with oversized Legos and fought over them. Because that's what we do. There were these insanely cute guys at the thrift store, and they were like...following us even though we were following them. We got an assload of shit and everything was 50% off. Fucking awesome, no? I got this messenger bag that says all the different kinds of SKYY...alcoholic beverages in the corner, and it was some sort of vodka-toting bag. Haha, I don't know how to explain it but it's awesome. After that she spent the night and we listened to Lifehouse alot and talked to this guy named Pierre on the phone all night. He's James's sister's ex-fiance...which is really weird, but he's fucking awesome. Apparently, James is still talking about me alot. :( But yeeah. We tried to iron patches onto our Converse, but they wouldn't fucking stick, so we just painted them with glittery nail polish. And we colored pictures for Pierre, which we sent to him via postal service today.
And that's that. I had to clean my room today, and I found this version of that Somewhere I Belong song by Linkin Park I made last year. It goes as follows:
I gotta pee, I gotta whiz
And I gotta do it now
I gotta let go of the pee in my bladder
(Release all the pee til it's gone)
I gotta pee, I gotta whiz
And it's gonna be on you
Unless of course there is a toilet right near me
Somewhere I can pee
I will never know
Myself until I pee all on my own
And I will never feel
Relief of pee as it exits me
I will never be
Anything until I break out the toity
I will break away,
I'll find a loo today.
Clever, eh? I think I wrote it when I was locked out of the house after school and I really had to urinate.
The stupid fucking weather is having worse moodswings than me. I think it should just stick to storming until atleast after I get home from work. Melly-poo and Cozzy are visiting me today and hopefully we're going to hizzle out tomorrow.
GOD, I'M SO FUCKING BORED.
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| 06:42pm 13/06/2004 |
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I woke up late for work again. Only this time instead of being woken up by the phone, I woke up to my mom screaming at me. She was like, "IT'S 11:08, YOU NEED TO BE AT FUCKING WORK!" Thankfully, I slept in my work pants and I just had to put on a shirt. When I came downstairs, my mom was like, "ARE YOU EVEN GOING TO BE ABLE TO WAKE UP ON YOUR OWN DURING COLLEGE? HOW ARE YOU GOING TO GRADUATE?!" and my dad was like, "I DON'T THINK SHE WILL." I was too tired to care, though. Larry didn't even care. My mom thought I was going to get fired again. What the hell? I was only 10 minutes late >_<
But yeah. Work sucked. One of the ice cream machines fucking broke and the other one was...giving out strange-looking ice cream. It got really busy 10 minutes before I had to leave, so I had to stay for 20 minutes later. Bah. Now I'm really tired. I hate being tired because I hate sleeping. Sometimes. Damnit.
Staci's called like...5 times today. I feel so loved.
Oh yeah, Matt, Dodd says...
( Biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.... ) |
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Did anyone else ever realize just how retarded Jessica Simpson looks when she sings? I, for some godawful reason, was watching the Nick and Jessica Variety Show, and she started singing that Take My Breath Away song. I thought she was just looking like that to make fun of...people who do that, but she actually does it. Herself. I just wanted to throw random objects into her mouth to see if they would fit in that...gigantic facial recess of hers.
And there's this bug that keeps flying around my lamp and landing on the lightbulb and burning its feet things. It doesn't seem to get the idea that if it lands on the bright object, it soon will have no feet. It flew near my head and I slapped it. It's still going strong. What a dumbass.
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I just realized we got report cards :o
Orchestra: A
Gym: A, I guess.
Study hall: "S"
Science: A
Tech: A-
English: A
Algebra: F
Sock Stud (Social studies...): C
Mr. Page should choke on fucking milk and die from pneumonia. He's the worst math teacher ever. |
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| 09:53pm 12/06/2004 |
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Wow.
Uhm...Yeah.
Taylor came over yesterday after summer school, and I promised I'd be awake but I was still asleep. The dog barking woke me up. We walked back to the high school and adventured around inside. I don't like that place. She really wanted to watch the boys' basketball camp, but I was too fucking lazy and we walked outside too much. I did see Bradon and Eean (whom I haven't seen in forever.) and some other assorted people they were with. This one girl named Ilona was like...hitting on a little black boy. Fuckin' nuts. We stole signs off doors and shirts from the lost and found. I got a black Hooters shirt that smells like Axe.
I tried to call my mom from a pay phone so she could pick us up, but Taylor wouldn't give me fifty cents, and I was pressing the...metal thing that hangs the phone up and down alot, and...it called the police :x
'Cause if the buttons on your phone don't work, then you can push the thing alot and the pulses dial 911 or something...I don't know. I was just mindlessly doing it, and some police officer guy came up to me while I was talking to my mom and was like, "Is everything okay here? We got a call from that phone you're on." =\
Anyway. Then we went to Wal-Mart after that. We second guess ourselves so much. We found stuff we wanted to buy within the first ten minutes, and by the time we left, we had completely different stuff.
But I just worked today. It was more fun than usual. I was supposed to come in at 10, but I woke up at 10:03 and I ran downstairs and called Dairy Queen while putting my pants on, and Larry just told me to come in at 11. So that was cool. I slept until 10:45.
Yep.
Then I got an email back from James. I was so nervous to read it, but it's all good. He says he "still wants to be friends," but...whatever. I don't know how that'd work. I'm not very good at being friends.
I think someone should get me a :30TM wristband. Because they're sex. |
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| 04:52am 11/06/2004 |
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NEW SCREEN NAME:
Dark x Shines
Yeah, "Dark Shines" and "Dark Shines x" were already taken. I don't know why I randomly decided to change my screen name. Yep.
Holy fuck, why am I still awake? Shit. |
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| Here forever, the spiral never ends... |
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| 06:56pm 10/06/2004 |
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mood:  drained music: :30TM-Fallen
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I don't remember when I got to sleep, but I slept on the couch behind the computer. It wasn't very comfortable and it was really cold. I think I only slept for 2 hours or something...I don't know, but I woke up sad. Then her mom drove me home around 10 and I took a shower and got ready and walked to work. It wasn't very busy today, but it was so fucking humid and I feel gross. I tried to open a huge can of cocoa fudge, and I cut my thumb really deep on the sharp rim.
Staci got her hair cut kind of like mine (all spiky in the back), but her bangs are shorter and there's more of them. It's so fucking cute and it made my day. She came into Dairy Queen to show me and I was happy.
Kat and Mezz and Chucky also came in, and I made them stuff. That was just as equally fun.
Other than that, though, it wasn't very entertaining. I've felt like I have vomit in my throat all day and it's really bugging me.
I'm so tired. Geh. |
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| 01:05am 10/06/2004 |
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Dude, I suck at life. Heh.
I've been sitting here at the computer mostly the whole time. I don't think they like me much. Venni came in and we looked at old journal entries in my scattdayap journal, but...yeah. I want another bagel. |
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| 10:36pm 09/06/2004 |
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mood: okay music: APC
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Yeah. I'm at Melissa's house. I just kind of randomly...came over. Her mom is all fucked up on pain killers, so Venni had to pretend to be her mom so she could talk to my mom...And she almost didn't believe her. Ehh.
Wellp. I went to Hobby Lobby again today with Staci. It's amazing how much money I can spend there...without realizing it. I got more iron-on letters. I don't even really need them...
...Yeah. I wrote a break-up email to James today. I still can't believe I actually sent it. I had it all written out on paper. I'm such a fucking loser. It was so corny... =\
We're going to go walking now. |
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| Rectifier, take my hand and set me free... |
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| 02:03pm 08/06/2004 |
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mood: blah music: James talking
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This has probably been the strangest ten days of my life. Well, it's probably still going on, but you know how it is.
Anyway, I went to Tursh's graduation on Sunday at Verizon. It feels strange being there when you're not a concert. Staci came with us, and we cheered for a bunch of people. On the drive home, Tursh stuck her diploma out the window and told random people she graduated.
Then Staci spent the night last night. We found this tape we made in sixth grade where we went out in the middle of the night and made a show call "The Fuckin' Show"...and wow. We were fucking hilarious. There was this one part where Staci ran out at a car, and it stopped and we fucking hauled ass into the house, but we couldn't get the door open. Somewhere in the midst of this haste, I yelled, "THAT'S NOT FUCKIN' RIGHT!" and for some reason it was really funny. Yeah.
Then she called this Tyler guy and she talked to him from around 10:30 to 3.
That's about it. Now I'm going to Petsmart and Meijer. |
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| 10:13pm 05/06/2004 |
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mood: let down music: Finger Eleven-Therapy
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Wide awakened out of spinning
'Round your safest orbit
You controlled the ordinary
I was grateful for it
Wide awake in the beginning
Trembling after the fall
Only half my world remembers
While the other half revolves
Cut off 'cause I can't remember
A face that could cut me deeper
But hearts could never leave me bleeding
Becoming the cause and burden
The lesson begins unlearning
And it has never been forgiving, my dear
It's all too familiar, I've been here before
I'll carry this weight for your smallest reward
Because I'll continue to break down the door
Just let me in, I swear it will not be like before
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do, I
Just think I might
Be losing my...mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy, 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel...fine
Collecting the strangest conscience
Apathy returns its offence
But only after I get moving
Relax and begin the chance
It's time for the newest age
To help me find out what I'm missing in here
It's all too familiar, I've been here before
I'll carry this weight for your smallest reward
Because I'll continue to break down the door
Just let me in, I swear it will not be like before
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do, I
Just think I might
Be losing my...mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy, 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel...fine
I covered all the grounds and I
Have covered up design
And every second I have spent
Has come to remind me in time
Wide awakened out of spinning
'Round your safest orbit
You controlled the ordinary
I was grateful for it...
I was grateful for it.
Can't think of what to say
Can't think of what to do, I
Just think I might
Be losing my...mind
Can't stop this agony
Cancel my therapy, 'cause
I just thought of you
And now I feel...fine |
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| I don't wanna miss it when you hit that high... |
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| 05:36pm 04/06/2004 |
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mood: refreshed music: WHAM!-Wake Me Up Before You Go-go
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Did you know they really make orange mocha frappacinos at Starbucks? And they're actually really really good. I wish I could get one every single day, but they cost, like, $3.20 for a small one. Tursh and I got one and we listened to Wake Me Up Before You Go-go and drove around dancing and singing like they do in Zoolander. You don't realize just how much fun it is until you actually do it. Heh-heh. :D
Annie's spending the night tonight, and we're HOPEFULLY going to go to the mall even though we only collectively have $9 among us! That is, if my dad decides to not be evil.
Shit, I still haven't changed my light bulbs. |
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